Revamp

As the title says it all. This blog, like me, needs a makeover. 

It's All A Passing Phase

It's crazy when weekends just drift silently away. I don't seem to maximize my weekends because most of the time are spent lazing. It just don't seem appropriate that I keep thinking of work on weekends. It's difficult especially to try to divide quality time for myself. 


I believe my life will be great if I can do wonders without telling anyone about it. I hate telling or even reporting I want to do this or that. I'm always telling myself I'm in need of a holiday but what's a holiday when you you don't enjoy it. This time round, I'm looking forward because I plan my own itinerary, travel locations. I'm in control of how I want it to be, without any consultation. 


Weekend planing should be random, in fact, there shouldn't be plans at all. I would love do try a different weekend; by randomly heading anywhere. I do not want to be confined to any plans by anybody. I shall do away plans and immerse in a quality weekend. 

Keep Holding On

Here I am waiting for my next flight to Hongkong. 8 days in Korea is tiring. It's supposed to be a holiday yet I'm not feeling it. Suddenly the feeling of wanting to head home hit me so bad. Ironically I'm traveling in a group but I'm just alone. This travel alone made me think about a lot of things; primarily on my life and my career. I admit I chose the way I want it to be because I'm losing the energy to make people accept who I am.

I somehow felt I tried my best. What else should I do to make myself happy? Trying not to think about stuffs is difficult. You thought you got over it and accepted reality but situations just keep clinging to you no matter how hard you try to shake it off.

Almost everyone in the company got a promotion. What have I not done enough to justify? I'm doing what everyone is doing, I accept whatever is assigned. I don't see myself putting less effort than everyone else. It's just really demoralizing and disappointing to see the start of a new financial year thinking that predictable increment I'm going to get. Did I make the wrong step of running my own race instead with others? This year ahead makes me wonder what's installed for the next year.

I travelled with a colleague and this trip she saw a different side of me. I always wanted to separate work form my personal life and it seems better if she wasn't around. I know I can't make her not go on this trip and it's her choice. Thus, it's better I just opt out from this group. I never like people to know my thoughtS because I like residing in my own comfort zone. Everything seems so superficial now.

It's seems he has other perceptions of me when I all want is to be genuine to people. I want to be nice but I gave up; no effort can be seen in me. I'm not a good conversationalist probably because all conversations I can join in. Maybe I do better putting my thoughts here in a virtual world because no emotions or feelings can be seen here. Seriously I am tired. Im already too dazed to think what's installed.

Maybe I should just go with the flow and react as things come along. I'm tired and I really doubt I can just continue moving on.

What's installed for me next in my holiday. I'm supposed to feel exited and happy. Weariness has bitten me so hard I just want to stay in my room and come out when I'm ready.

勇敢

生命的伤痕, 苦涩, 寂寞
最难的是面对内心
那个脆弱不安的自己
我和我一起勇敢...

Home

Where will there be a time, I can just purely hibernate at home. I'm just so tired of going out and wasting money.

Miss Yamagata

Damn, damn, damn...

I didn't know she's doing a showcase in Singapore this month and the tickets are sold out. Luckily, she's going to add another show but I know it's going to be a tough fight to get the tickets. Miss Yamagata, how can you do this to your hard core fans!

Your first gig was a sellout, so was the second and now the third? There are other venues which can accomodate a larger crowd. Please, please do a bigger venue next time.

By the way, are you releasing your new album soon?

Being Affluent

I never came to understand the rationale of having an imitation. If one can afford, it's ok to purchase a branded item. Do people not get bug by the conscience that they are actually carrying an imitation. As for people who genuinely paid for the real deal, it's really a pity to get misunderstood.

I love bags and I pay the real deal for bags. However, there's a bag which I've being wanting to get it ever since I saw it along the streets of Orchard. Then, everyone seems to carry the same model. There I'm thinking, how do people start noticing this particular brand of bag. I've know this brand when a friend of mine told me while she was in Taiwan years ago.

The point is I'm contemplating to get it because I don't want my bag to be mistaken as a fake if imitations are running around.