Ulterior Motives

I try to be transparent in front of all my friends. However, I think it hurts when some friends out there who see me as someone with ulterior motives. Ok, it's just one particular person.

I try to be nice and friendly genuinely.

I try to be caring and concern.

I try to maintain good relations by having regular conversations.

However this friend see my actions as some form of act. I think it's even hurtful when this friend feels that I carry ulterior motives. Has my interpersonal skills went wrong?

There are some problems with blogger which explains why I can't maintain my usual formatting.

Sometimes I do wish things do happen in my way. Maybe I do find that little comfort typing things here. Faith is a powerful word. It motivates me in believing one day, things will eventually turn out as I've expected.

I missed the good life I had before I was a undergraduate. Will that kind of life be returned to me one day? I