Life
Suddenly, there are several issues in my mind and I felt the urge to get it down here. However, my flow of thoughts are rather disjointed. I have this feeling that this is a "collage" piece of entry here.
The Future:
Something which is indescribable, unforeseen. However, I'm telling myself that somehow we need to believe. I won't know how or what an engineer I'll turn out to be. One thing I'm certain is: I'll dress well. There's always this misconception of how engineers are not "well dressed". At least I'm happy as I make an effort to dress well for work. With the irregularities of the world surfacing, am I ready for that.
A career to carve, life's commitment, the aging issues, how to grow financially, etc. I'm an answer seeker but there are times where I don't have an answer or get an answer. I'm wondering, do I need to provide an answer to myself or somehow, the answer will appear arbitrarily.
The future is powerful, yet I'm not sure if I can handle it well.
The Present:
They say it's a gift. I'm never appreciative about this "gift". I tend to expect more, having a greater appetite for things to be done. Then, the issue of comparison surfaces but this is inevitable. There is a imaginary link to the past. For who I am now, it's because the past has changed me completely. I like the old me but I cannot be one. I don't want people to know the "old me". I don't fit in the new circle of friends but I know everyone is there for companionship. Maybe that's the present for. I try to anticipate what a new day is for me. There'll never be a clear cut. I can be down for a moment but my mood swings a 180 degrees in the next.
The Past:
There are many lessons to be learn. The tumultuous downs, the highlights. The cause and the effect. Memory is a powerful tool. We can never forget. The more cautious we are, the more easy we'll tread the same path again. I try to avoid but I'm going round in circle. I try to act nonchalantly to things around me. To err is human and is it always acceptable that we keep making new mistakes? We live, we learn, and we can never turn back time. If I did create a mess out of my life, probably now I know what's worth to live for, what's not.
As we grow, we must learn to let go on certain things. I never like the idea or saying "let's move on". I believe the world is wide out there, substitution, it's easy. To an extent, I can achieve what I aim for.
The Future:
Something which is indescribable, unforeseen. However, I'm telling myself that somehow we need to believe. I won't know how or what an engineer I'll turn out to be. One thing I'm certain is: I'll dress well. There's always this misconception of how engineers are not "well dressed". At least I'm happy as I make an effort to dress well for work. With the irregularities of the world surfacing, am I ready for that.
A career to carve, life's commitment, the aging issues, how to grow financially, etc. I'm an answer seeker but there are times where I don't have an answer or get an answer. I'm wondering, do I need to provide an answer to myself or somehow, the answer will appear arbitrarily.
The future is powerful, yet I'm not sure if I can handle it well.
The Present:
They say it's a gift. I'm never appreciative about this "gift". I tend to expect more, having a greater appetite for things to be done. Then, the issue of comparison surfaces but this is inevitable. There is a imaginary link to the past. For who I am now, it's because the past has changed me completely. I like the old me but I cannot be one. I don't want people to know the "old me". I don't fit in the new circle of friends but I know everyone is there for companionship. Maybe that's the present for. I try to anticipate what a new day is for me. There'll never be a clear cut. I can be down for a moment but my mood swings a 180 degrees in the next.
The Past:
There are many lessons to be learn. The tumultuous downs, the highlights. The cause and the effect. Memory is a powerful tool. We can never forget. The more cautious we are, the more easy we'll tread the same path again. I try to avoid but I'm going round in circle. I try to act nonchalantly to things around me. To err is human and is it always acceptable that we keep making new mistakes? We live, we learn, and we can never turn back time. If I did create a mess out of my life, probably now I know what's worth to live for, what's not.
As we grow, we must learn to let go on certain things. I never like the idea or saying "let's move on". I believe the world is wide out there, substitution, it's easy. To an extent, I can achieve what I aim for.
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